Well, as usual time never stops and as the kids get older it just seems to fly right by. Not really sure why it happens that way. When they are first born, time seems to just creep along as you wait for them to do things on their own. You just can't wait for them to smile their first smile, roll over by themselves, sit on their own, crawl, say their first words, creep, walk (need I go on). We seem to wish time away just so you can enjoy experiencing life with them. AND the next thing you know, you blink your eyes and turn around and they are nearly GROWN. Then you think, OH MY where has the time gone and why can't I turn back to clocks. Not really sure why it happens that way, but it does.
It is hard to believe that 17 years ago, I became a mom to one one the most precious babies on this earth, and just yesterday, my sweet little baby boy had his senior portraits taken at school. WOW!!! I was a little surprised when we got the notice in the mail that they would be taking them already. He is still a junior and not even finished out the school year yet, and already time is getting away from us once again!!! Can't believe that this time next year, we will be gearing up for GRADUATION. Not sure if I am ready for all of this, but in reality I have no choice. I am very proud of him and the young man he has become, but a little sad, worried and scared all at the same time. All of these thoughts come flooding to my mind like, did I raise him the right way, will he be able to handle life on his own if he goes away to college, is he mature enough to handle life's decisions, am I ready for him to leave, will he make the right decisions.
I know that he has a good head on his shoulders and a good foundation of faith and will do just fine, but what about me? Sure he has gone away on trips and adventures with school, church, friends, etc. and done just fine, but this is the BIG YEAR for him and when he graduates, it will be just the first step to leaving home for good. AM I READY FOR THIS. Well I guess I have to be, because, time keeps moving and I can't stop it or take it back or turn back the clocks. Just have to trust that we have raised him right, not screwed up too much and give him the room to leave our safe little nest so he can spread his wings and SOAR!!!
Artie told me when he got back from taking him to have his pictures made yesterday, that he was glad I didn't go, because I probably would have CRIED!! As I am sure other parents have know have testified to their tears yesterday, too.
Well, I suppose all I can do is place him in God's hands, pray for his leadership and guidance to watch over and protect him and know that I can't stop time and keep it from turning, but I can make the most of the time we have been give together and sit back and enjoy the ride. May be a little bumpy at times and move a little too fast, but I am buckled up and ready to go.
Thank you God for the time you have given me with this precious treasure, and may I not waste it on the unimportant things in life, but treasure every sweet and precious moment from now on.
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